Why I went back to cooked food…
Im an organic athlete 
Durianrider’s talk last night was great, lots of controversial topics were covered, plenty of raised brows & random nervous giggles I really admire DR for his commitment to making this world a better place, admirable.
Exercise Yesterday : 38kms on bike, 7km hill run,
Today: 20kms on bike
Eats today: 5kg melon half, 3kg oranges, 10 banana smoothie
So I was thinking today – what is the biggest reason peeps don’t succeed on the low fat raw vegan lifestyle..? Personally I can unequivocally pinpoint why I fell off the raw wagon in Sept 07….here’s what happened…
I had been 100% raw for 9months when I started dating guys off RSVP (a dating site), I started to become increasingly disappointed at the fact that I couldn’t find a raw man (ahuh what are the chances?).
Taking the refuse for composting
Just as I had habitually done in the past I started to question my weight, foolishly pinpointing it as being the limiting factor in my lack of romance.. as a result I developed a complex that I was too fat (I was 57kg) so I started to undereat…
I was down to eating such small amounts of fruit that every cooked food smell drove me crazy! I knew I needed to eat more calories but I became secretly obsessed… I was right into my yoga at the time & most of my yogi friends ate very minimally (& this was reflected in their low energy levels), they were also keen on practicing dauhti (which was totally against my instincts & is another topic!)
At first I went back to a high fat raw diet to fill the void (calorie deficit) with fat but as a result started undereating on carbohydrates (if u are eating excess fat then u will be undereating on carbs).
….Next thing u know I’m out on a date with an ‘RSVP’er’ having baked vegies in oil & salt. I remember him saying ‘hey but you only eat raw food don’t u?’ I was like ‘ Oh yeh um… occasionally I eat cooked food…’ & then & there I confirmed it to the universe… that cooked food was on the menu again..
Clints Organic Shop
My true self was hungry for nutrition but my body’s survival instincts took charge & began steering me towards denser calorie sources (which just happens to be cooked food). This situation could’ve been avoided if I was simply eating enough fruit . Its not rocket science but it is science.
Now days I know how to eat enough calories & as a result I have the energy to exercise & maintain my fitness . The added bonus is that when i am fit my weight just takes care of itself !
The Symptoms I experienced as a result of undereating…maybe u can identify with some…
* Preoccupied with food, esp cooked food which took on a whole new ‘apeel’
* Always wanting to make gourmet raw meals (mimicking cooked food) & would constantly be perusing gourmet raw recipes
* Heavy legs that would scream at the thought of exercise
* I would regularly take things personally (when it was rarely about me at all)
* Had no motivation to do dynamic movement & started to question our need for high intensity exercise…became more interested in meditation (which is great but be aware this can be a sign of undereating)
* Became emotionally unstable extremely quickly & would ‘fly off the handle’ very easily
* I become a skinny fat person because I didn’t have the energy to do anything, my muscle atrophied from lack of calories & use
* I would get angry with DR when he used to run down the road after me with a banana smoothie in hand….he knew the deal.
* I had Less energy to give to others in person, I would avoid too much conversation as it drained me, every ounce of my vitality was being used just to get me through the day.
* I couldn’t muster up much passion to talk about rawfood with others or when I gave talks which resulted in a less than enthusiastic crowd.
* I started to be obsessed with the idea of breatharianism
* I became depressed & started to question the raw lifestyle & look for reasons not to do it
* My self-esteem lowered considerably as a result of my ‘under-sugared’ state, yes I even became suicidal
* I would ALWAYS end up bingeing, when I was raw- it was nuts, avo, dates. When I was cooked – pasta,choc,lollies (carbs)…after the binges I would beat myself up & think I was just undisciplined instead of identifying a calorie deficit.
* Life just wasn’t as fruity…
Todays office at home..
If u identify with any other these undereating symptoms i suggest you go to nutridiary.com & work out how many calories u need to maintain your current weight, aim for this figure with sweet juicy fruits.
At least 3000 calories for men & 2000 calories for womyn.
Ciao for now!!
Loveulovemelovefree
Thanks for the posts. I’m really enjoying them!
Awesome! Its great to get feedback!
Hi Freelee,
I am just looking more into this lifestyle. And I was wondering, if you start eating like this, does this mean that you have to excercise 1-2 hours a day to live this lifestyle?
Cheers
Oh definitely not! I only do about 5-6hrs a week max jogging and it works a charm. Don’t worry
Awesome post Freelee
Ive been there too, and the list of symptoms you made is spot on amazing! Its funny how the first time you get there its not self evident, but in retrospect, after learning the lesson, somtimes twice it makes all the sence in the world! thanks much!
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Cool yeh Im hearing you CK, sometimes it can take many falls from the apple tree to realize! im glad only once for me
Thanks so much for sharing your lovely energy on my page X
Thanks for writing about me. Felt ripped off as didn’t feel the vitality that others spoke of. Just tired and lethargic. Still probably don’t eat enough although always seem to be eating. It has taken my whole life to get to this point so turning things around should take a little time too. I would add one more thing to your list Freelee and that is lifestyle. I work in cities surrounded by suits. This world is designed around the SAD diet and staying fed is hard. Don’t have the answers yet but would love to hear how others manage it.
BlogonFreelee
I’d be curious to hear how long u did 100% LFRV for?…no one should miss out on the energy high! Yes lifestyle is very important, all the more reason to have the most nutritious fuel pumping through our veins….
Blogon – love it!
Thanks for the comment X
Thank you Freelee, this was so precious, you really are a true and intelligent person!
Byez, thank you very much…
Ciao!
thanks so much ! If these posts save 1 animals life by bringing peeps to raw…then mission accomplished!
Where’s the part where you met DR?
oh yeah Im trying to keep the blog short bob! Stay tuned
Free, you are absolutely one of the most brightest & beautiful woman I’ve ever seen in my life! Keep doing the great things that you and DR are doing!! Peace!
thankyou so much Priyam I really love to hear that!!
It feels good to be looking out for the planet, peeps & the animals.
Thx for saying hi
Lovefree
Grr… sounds so familiar!!! Damnit!
The excuses!
But what if someone cooks me some food? (Just calmly explain you can’t eat that and then DON’T EAT IT – if you were a vegan anyway, you wouldn’t eat meat just cause someone gave it to you, right?)
What if I’m in a new country and want to taste the cuisine? (Fruit is ALWAYS on the local menu, every country has their variety! On top of that, tourists in Scotland aren’t jumping to taste haggis are they?)
What if my boyfriend/girlfriend/wife/husband/friends think I’m weird? (If you feel better for it, they’ll accept it. Those who mind, don’t matter and those who matter, don’t mind).
What if I’m going out and I want to be sociable and have a drink? (If you need liquor to party, you obviously lack a little in confidence – work on that. And if you really MUST buy something – buy water! On the plus side, your friends will always have a sober person to watch over them ;P)
What if I start tomorrow? (This would be your 452348th tomorrow? Live for today, not tomorrow. A fruity life is a life of no regrets or consequences)
These are all the questions I ask myself and all the answers I decide to ignore when I want a reason to eat things that will make me feel bad.
With every passing day, I’m realizing a fruity life is not difficult – it’s rewarding. Every day I go fruitless is fruitless. I lately look at my (cooked) plate and think: “Why is this not a plate of plums/oranges/kiwis? What’s my excuse this time?” And I realize I have no excuse. The only one I’m cheating on, is myself – because I know better.
Knowing better is not enough now – I have to DO BETTER!
Freelee, this post has been a boost of inspiration I really needed now. I’ll update you about how the rest of my travels went, now that I’m really putting it out there (for you in any case) – I’M BACK ON THE FRUITY TRACK!!
Huge-ass rant – but I needed to post it – hope you don’t mind
Much love from Poland,
Tina
You rock Tina! Love this! yes no more excuses!
Oh I have so loved reading this!!!! I was thinking back to a few months ago when I was feeling fabulous on raw (haven’t been feeling too good the past month and candida is back so have been fruit free!) – I was having loads of green smoothies and decided to have them regularly again but there’s been no change – now I sit here though realising that I was eating tons of fruit back then or should i say TONS! Thank god I have found your community – I lay in bed a few nights ago determined to get back on track and asking questions about how I could summon the strength and determination that I know I have (we all do). The universe answered me and I found it, 30bad’s! Now let the girl eat fruit!! Thanks for sharing the love Freelee. D xx
Hey, Freelee!! Fantastic post, loved it, may I translate it into portuguese with all the credits, links & everything in my new blog??
Yes absolutely! Spread the word
Thanks, mate!!